Sabrina was a scheduled C - Section. Born 3 1/2 weeks early due to Placenta Previa. From the beginning she cried night and day. I remember when she was just two days old I had my first break down in the hospital. The nurse had yelled at me for not being able to stop my baby from crying. What she didn’t realize was that my baby was crying all the time and no matter what I did, nothing seemed to help. After 4 days of no sleep, C-section pain and soar nipples I was temporarily rescued. A nurse came in as if on a white horse. She saw the tears in my eyes. Cradling my daughter and calling her princess, she took Sabrina to the nursery for a few hours so that I could get some sleep.
That night was the last stretch of sleep I got for almost 6 months.
Sabrina cried night and day. She arched her back and screamed. She wanted to feed all the time, but that made her squirm and cry. I had so much milk that she had to guzzle just to keep up with the amount being sprayed her way. My milk producing mammarys were super charged, spraying anything within a 3 Foot distance. I even had a lactation consultant come to the house to help. She projectile vomited large amounts all the time. She and I were always in a new outfit. I would stand half the night swaddling, rocking, bouncing...anything to help sooth her. For the first 3 months I thought, this is what babies do, they cry all the time. Mothers of the world weren’t kidding when they said this was the hardest job on the planet.
I was delirious with no sleep and rattled nerves, I could think straight. It wasn’t until my mother and friends started chiming in telling me that most babies don’t cry this much. So I went to her pediatrician looking for guidance. They were hesitant to give her anything. Maybe because they thought I was exaggerating? I don’t know. First they suggested that I should change my diet. Eliminate all dairy, nuts, soy, caffeine, chocolate, basically everything and then slowly add back on a trial basis. I thought there was no way my diet could affect her so severely. If we can take all sorts of medicine and breast feed, how can something as simple as milk make my baby cry all the time. Her Doctor gave me the lowest dose acid blocker on the market to help with the vomiting. I didn’t know to ask for anything else. The medicine seemed to help a bit, but I was still up all the time trying to sooth a baby that wasn’t “soothable”.
It was one of the hardest times in my life, when it should have been one of the best.
I always thought I wanted a large family. However, I was scarred after having a baby with colic. Post colic, my daughter is amazing in every way, but it took me 3 1/2 years, one bottle of wine and an opps..... to get pregnant and have a second baby.
Stay tuned next week for TAKE TWO, CHILD TWO..............